Thursday, December 17, 2009

Oh shucks..

Why is it when you are happy with what you have, someone comes and takes it all away. A phone call. A message. An email. A meeting. Can you really imagine that it takes away everything. 


Well thats what happened with me. When I am quite happy with the guy (lets call him G) in my life right now, my ex boyfriend (Lets call him M) wants to blow it all off. I dont know if he wants to interfere but he has already done that. I am over him then why is he coming back. 


Okay. Lemme tell you what happened. M mailed me after 2 years asking me how I was, how my professional life was, etc etc. The thing is that he wants help from me. Advice, you could say. About what should he do after some post graduation that he did from UK. Well, we broke off before he went there and all the news that I got about him came through common friends. He left me in a bad condition. When I really needed someone by my side, he wasn't there. He just left. And then came my guy. G took me out of the mess. He lend me a shoulder to cry on. He did everything for me. Every damn thing that you can think of. 


But I didnt like the email. 


I don't want that email to spoil my life, again. I told G about it and we haven't discussed about it as yet. But I am sure that he is hurt. Hurt that M mailed. True it is that I loved M a lot in my old days, but not anymore. He has gone and so have his memories. Why does he want to play. Doesn't he want to see me happy. Content with all that I have, I had totally forgotten M. And then there is G with me. Always staying on my side, supporting me in everything. We have already spent about 2 and a half years together full of our own sweet memories and moments to cherish. I don't want things to change. 


I hope that G stays in my life and doesn't leave me like M did. 


I experienced the bad phase and I don't want to re-live it. 


O Lord, Please don't let the bad take over. I am one of your many children. Don't take your hands off me. Don't let the happiness fade away. U had send G to wipe my tears. Don't let him go away. I can't be greedy, so I will ask you not only to bless me but also G for he has made my life worth living. O Lord, bless him too. 


Amen 

29 comments:

oRange* said...

oh, this is such a common trick used by 'mean ex bfs' :P
they leave when u need them the most and come back whenever THEY wish to!

the power to let him come back and mess with your life is entirely in your hands, hope u use it wisely :)

take care!

Chanz said...

you know what Orange, you did it girl. U said what I wanted to hear. Now I know what I have to do...
Thanks sweety...

Really love you a lot.

And I am sure you dint realise how much you have helped m by saying this..

Muaahhh

Ramit said...

oRange is very correct! I don't have anything more to add!

Saurabh Panshikar said...

Hey chanz... You gotta do what you gotta do... But I suggest a cooler approach. Instead of completely avoiding M, just let him know that you are blissfully happy and it would be a sin to disturb your life if he really loves you.

M, if you're reading this, get out from chanz' face!

G, if you're reading this, never hurt this gal... and don't leave her for the world! She deserves it!

Darshan Chande said...

Oragne :-}

chitz said...

Past is past dear..you can't do anything if that guy mailed you..you were true,so u discussed it wid ur guy..he will see it..

don't worry,every things gona b fine...

Nipun said...

Just kick dat old fellow chanz..
How could he ever think of coming back??
Just show him his ryt place and be exuberant with your present situations..
Dont let him affect u in any way..
Past teaches us and I think u've learned well from it.
I hope that says all i cud..
Blessings from me again..

Nuts :)

Tara said...

Be honest and follow your hearts earnest desires !! Nothing can let you down .. God Bless !!

Chanz said...

@ Saurabh : I really want to clear out things with M but i know that it won't be taken so easily by G. And trust me I dont want to hurt G. :(

As far as M is concerned, i dont think he is trying to come back in my life. Its just that he wants help. (If I am not wrong)

Chanz said...

@ Darshan & Ramit : you must thank Orange for speaking for you guys.. :P

Chanz said...

@ Chitz : I so want to be truthful. I can't let a lie spoil the relationship. I hope both G and M will understand..

Chanz said...

@ Nipun : Well as I said earlier, I dont think he wants to come back in my life. I think he alrady has a girl friend (as told by my friend about 7-8 months back). Its just that M wants some help from me. Not that I want to go out of the way to help him but I dont have the guts to refuse also. Maybe for the sake of humanity, I would help just anybody and M is no exception.

Chanz said...

@ Tara : Bingo.. :)

Sun said...

Hi.. nice posts.. I like ur blog.. Hope u will visit my blog too..

Sorcerer said...

hmmm... Chanzzz....
I seee you are worried about nothing.
If you are clear about what you want in life, why worry about a roadkill you left behind.

Things should be easy when you don't take your eyes off the objective.

Chanz said...

@ Sorcerer : Hmmm.. Maybe i know what to do but something is stopping me. Something is bothring mee and i dont want to hurt G.

Chandrika Shubham said...

Sometimes it happens in life when you need the special person beside you, to comfort you, you shockingly found that person missing.

Keep posting.

Chanz said...

Thats true Chandrika.. I did feel that way. :(

Btw welcome to my blog.

Keep visiting..

:)

Wicked Witch of the West said...

Yes, everyone is totally right :)

1. You had nothing to do with this ex contacting you...totally beyond your control.
2. You told your boyfriend about it, so although he may initially be jealous, his trust in you will be deepened because you told him. It is the people who will tell you what you don't like that you can really trust.
3. This ex is not only acting out of self-interest (probably not trying to be bad, but acting without consideration for sure) only now, he did wrong in the past so deserves none of your time. So important to keep people who will upset us or drag us down away from us.

Hope you are feeling better now. You do deserve to be happy :) And G sounds like the best sort of guy to have :)

buckingfastard said...

for god's sake use names....i was so confused wid who was G and who was M and do dey both live on M G road!!!

nyways...mail back M..."fuck off"..dats clear enuf...

and ask G out on date....guys love wen gals ask dem out..G will go Gaga over u

M will be Mamu!!! :)

Sorcerer said...

@chanz
its singularly your choice :)
some(time) hurt heals!!

Ankit said...

i jst wish tht u wld hve gt evrythng settled as of nw..as alwyz..u r gud in dese..jst gt 2 gve d much rqrd help to g bt keep m alwyz informed of it..g mst hve gt the inf. tht u r happy wid m.. so might be he is jealous of ur happines nd content in lyfe.. one never knows..so tke cre while dealing wid this unwanted situation.. best wishes..sty happy

Chanz said...

@ WWW: I know G is a nice guy. Not that M is not but I am over with him. But sometimes you really wanna talk and clear out things. That is where I lack the guts. Guts to talk to M. Guts to face G if I talk to M. Dont know what to do. Maybe I have just lost the power to think and not biased. :(

Chanz said...

@ BF : Hahaha... Thats my strategy to confuse you. Or lets say that it is the stratgy of every girl on this earth. They love to see men confused. :P

Well yaa, I really want to tell M to fuck off. But he is not a bad guy. I know it. I dont wanna say anything bad to any one. maybe i'll just tell him politely and nicely. Or maybe I will just ignore

Chanz said...

@ Sorcerer : You bet. Hurt does heal at times. Only till the time that we do not punish ourselves. Considering the fact that I am a psycho girl, I better keep away from getting hurt.. :P

Chanz said...

@ Ankit : everything is Ok. But I think you got confused between M and G. :P

Ankit said...

yeah..nw i know.. bt its more imp. tht u understood wht i hd 2 say..

Chanz said...

:) ofcourse I did. Hope I get out if this mess soon.. :)

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